it's just me now

track 02, bleed

if you’ve ever bled for a relationship 
then you know about the fear of loss 
between you and another person

when you've given everything
and it still doesn't work
it's hard not to see that
as your biggest failure

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when something breaks
I think of it as a transition

partner to co-parent
best friend to   just a friend

not quite so prickly
people have different stories

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I guess it's just me now

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what gets you through
the bottom of it
isn't someone else
deciding to love you better

it's realizing you're the only one
who can like yourself enough

to continue

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it's a dark place
when you think you might not be around
much longer

your life ending
a little early
before you've seen
everything
you wanted to see

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you're the one
who stops that

not someone else
changing how they see you
you   seeing yourself
differently

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that's where it starts
that's where
the bleeding   slows

and something in you
begins to warm